on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on lonely lonely lonely lonely lone!

My blog was flagged for awhile.

I guess I should censor what I say??

Yesterday, I went for a cigarette with my little roommate.

We came back to find our other roommate and 3 other people watching a chess game.

I KNEW MY FLOOR WAS EXTREMELY NERDY!

I yelled with excitment and demanded a game with the guy teaching the girl how to play.

Got my board from my room, and started it up.

The girl said, " You know, he is last year's state champion in chess"

Oh well if he was.  I played fucking Kasparov who sliced me.

The game went along ... and I just laughed and laughed...I was winning throughout the whole game. As the game went, they talked about their coed football team...they needed another girl!

I rose my hand for the duty. Talked about my spiral and such such. 

So I beat the boy, became QB of their football rec team, and as I went back to the room to read/wait for my phone call from Lucas...I came outside to people saying, " I heard you're really great at chess..." I got high 5s!! So nerdy!

I'm making friends slowly. I don't care who they are as long as I have fun ... I did judge them the first week because they say shit like 'powned' all the time...but whatever, they seem like very good people. 

But..I miss dear friends of Seattle. Of course, I seemed to drop off the face of the earth, seems to be my main quality I do to people I really like.  I feel a bit stuck. The friends in San Diego have moved on. I really can't seem to imagine of trying this again. Friends. I don't even know how to have any if I did have any. My examples of Seattle/San Diego. 

I'm just in a really weird spot right now. I'm fine but it is weird to be anywhere right now. I just keep myself busy 

- Might work at House of Blues in Hollywood

- Might work for our newspaper

- might try to intern at Jack FM

- might just jump off a bridge